Since "the heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked…" (From Jeremiah 17:9), we (subconsciously, perhaps) shrink from a hard look at our own heart. What would we feel, if God suddenly displayed every inner thought, motive, desire, and imagination to all the people around us? Would we be embarrassed? A more pressing question might be: would we be ashamed? An even more pressing question might be: are we truly grieved over how we have grieved Him? Do we deeply love Him? Do we love Him more than ourselves? Do we worship Him from overflowing hearts of praise and gratitude? Do we really love His Word? Do we really long to converse with Him? Are we thrilled with His Person? Are we excited about Him? What about motives? Do we do what we do at and for church, with joy in our hearts for a chance to give loving service to Him? Or do we want to be recognized as Spiritual and/ or as a Spiritual leader? These are the kinds of questions that we need to answer, if we are ever going to be vessels that are given to Him for His glory. Do we want His glory or self gratification? Selah! It takes time and discipline to let His searchlight expose all of our sin and self; much stumbling and getting back on our feet, Spiritually, in order to let Him have our whole heart, because we love Him so much! Ron
"Search me, O God, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting" (Psalm 139:23-24).